Giving Philly_and myself_Some Time

By the end of my first quarter of Drexel, I felt beaten.
My work/thought process was not graduate level (for business school standards), the city still intimidated me and whenever I returned from Christmas break, I would have no job waiting for me.

But after several conversations with people in the same position as myself, we have all decided to give Philly more of a chance. A support system arose for me from people I did not expect, and some that I've been waiting on for years.

We can do this.
We are just as strong if not stronger than we thought we were while making the decision to pursue this city. It might have brought us down in the beginning, but no more.

It's time to grow.
To see this 180 for what it is, and ourselves for what we will become.



I will not let him down:


You did not raise a quitter.

My Last Days at DVRPC

DVRPC

stands for

A. Delaware Valley Robot Production Council
B. Delaware Valley Rabbit Puree Candies
C. Delaware Valley Regional Planning Commission
D. Delaware Valley Regulations of Popcorn Consumption
E. Nobody will ever take the time to memorize it's actual name who doesn't work there

So this week is my last before getting laid off
no interviews lined up so far, but, it's December, so I'm not completely spazzing out yet.
Unemployment looks like a bright and shining option at the moment.


I'm heading home on Saturday to bask in the joy of Family.... and a high school reunion... and my bestest best college friends that i talk to nearly everyday but haven't seen since September.

Happy Holidays everyone!

This Makes Me Sad - So I Must Photograph and Post It

dead baby squirrel in my backyard.
he's getting a proper burial on wednesday night, if birds haven't carried him off.

Mind is Racing Like a Pro

i made it back to NC for a few days, and was overwhelmed by the people i left behind. you guys are immeasurably great human beings and don't know how much you mean to me and i doubt i could ever articulate it.

so i will do drawings of you all instead.
first one is of levi, then erin, then me. I've started a lot more, but am still waiting for feedback on content.





it's raining all weekend in Philly. Now i dont' feel so bad about not leaving the apartment.

Running Out of Time Said My Brain to My Mouth to Your Face

This week has been aweeesome

it's time for Philly Fringe
a 16 day live arts festival! The theater production that I helped out with, Wandering Alice, premiered yesterday, but i got a sneak peak Thursday night with all the other people that helped with the show.
The most amazing piece of theater I have seen yet.
http://www.livearts-fringe.org/2008/details.cfm?id=2888
And the creator, Nichole Canuso, is a dancer/actress herself and she's cool as shit.



I've also been painting a lot, finishing up some stuff i began back at home. Mostly on paper and corkboard. I finished Dawn's portrait of her dog Coconut as well. First finished piece i've done in oils since i graduated! I'm making milestones here people.



also, my Financial Aid came in so some pressure is off as far as money goes, and Paul Baldwin wrote me a letter! Gotta go write him back.

My sis is riding up to Philly this week, I've got 3 plays lined up, one in a skateboarding park, and 2 others, Killer Bass and Wawapalooza! and a Summerbirds in the Cellar concert!

and I'm going to the Mutter Museum tomorrow! Weird scientific phenomenas, in jars!

later on suckaas

I'm Disappointed!

in myself mostly.
I should be outside, finding things about this city that i can love, or grow to love, and i'm not.
I'm sitting in front of my computers, waiting for my job to send me work to design.
I wish introverts could just decide one day that they've had enough and turn a complete 180.
That sounds like i'm giving my behavior an excuse.
I promised myself that i would go out everyday and find something, some place new.
Call it nesting or fear of the unknown or whatever.
I get out everyday, just to places I've already been. Atleast I have some sort of comfort level here. My first week by myself I had none.
I wish i didn't take me so long to adapt.
If this were a test I think i'd be close to an F. Not completely failing, but one of those procrastinating slackshits that i hated so much when i was in school who would pull through at the last moment, but with no real goals, no vision.
I keep telling myself that i need to be sitting in front of my computers, the more i'm here, the more work I'll get to do, and the more i can actually go out and spend money.
I'm making money my excuse now.

Theres too many reasons. Too many reasons to not and too many reasons to.
And i'm sick of myself, that i can't pick one to go on and say fuck the rest.

I'm ALive!

and living in Philadelphia, PA ya'll. (no, i don't use that expression up here)

it's taken 2 weeks to get internet (one week of that was my fault, the second week just b/c it takes a week to get anything done in a big fucking city)

I'm getting over a cold that kept me inside and bored all week, so this weekend it's on! I'm helping out with some local theater, working with the set/tech designers to get the show arollin'--free tickets to the show and actual human contact....sounds good to me.

I'm also still working with the Daily Reflector, doing freelance to help with the transition from Gville, NC to Philly--until they find a new hire or until i find a real job up here.

i miss everyone! heres pictures of my apartment --for those i haven't emailed it to, which isn't likely, b/c i am an email whore.





and finally - somewhere i can log onto (b/c hot, rich people really have to use the internet to find someone) and know i'm not talking to a complete troll:

sick.
courtesy of Dave.
i spent all yesterday in bed watching Top Chef, Season 1.

Tiffany.
you should stop trying to be a chef if all you want to do is please yourself.
Everyone i've known named Tiffany have been the same.
Self absorbed.


Im back at work today, b/c sitting at home all day made me feel unproductive and useless.

Thanks to Nick Bailey for making me download Mute Math.
I think they are my new favs for a couple weeks too.

New York was awesome:


i'll post more when my eyes don't hurt.

Scene Around

Wheew, It's been a busy few months guys

• applying to grad schools around the east coast and Europe, i've heard back from one in DC, one in PA and one in NY, so i'm off to visit campuses in the next 2 weeks.

• completing paintings in one night! yes, i'm that good!

• going to New York on Friday, DC and Philadelphia the friday after that

oh yeah, and I made a flyer to celebrate my leave:


and here's the photographs individually so that you can better see how hilarious they are:

Busy Busy Busy

I've applied to 4 Grad Schools so far
• Georgetown
• American
• Drexel
• George Washington
6 more to go
(George Washington plllease accept me and give me moneeeeeeey)

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Saw Juno twice in the past 2 weeks
it should have won every award it was nominated for

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Worked on a redesign for the Reflector's monthly women's tabloid "Her"
though it probably won't change at all


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I've listened to nothing but Phosphorescent for 3 days

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The secret here is that I love you so
But i don't want your heart to know